Kaytie Does Life.

These past couple of weeks have been blurred and concerning. I'll let you in on the basics.

Friday, Feb 11th

- Someone told me they're in love with me. Someone who isn't Tom. It was flattering but also quite inconvenient.
- Potential new housemate stayed.
- I think of dying constantly.

Sunday, Feb 13th

- Yesterday Thomas picked me up. We went to Albury and then to our friend's place where he had invited some people over for drinks. We left when the liquid was seen more on the ground than in their mouths, and when people were yelling more than they were talking.
- We then went to see '127 Hours'.
- Thomas got some pizza.
- We showered and did the deed, then slept.
- Woke up, repeat.
- Thomas left for his first trip away to Sydney. As cliche as it sounds, I miss him already.

Tuesday, Feb 15th

- Heard from Thomas last night and tonight. He's enjoying himself.
- Mood has drastically down-spiralled. Myself and others are extremely concerned.
- Potential housemate is now definitely moving in next week. I'm apprehensive.

Wednesday, Feb 16th

- Too tired to move. To think. To dress. To tidy. To wash. For anything. I just want to...

Sunday, Feb 20th

- Had first real argument with housemate.
- Thomas returned Friday. We talked for hours and hours on my bed.
- Last night we went to the movies and saw 'Unknown'.

Monday, Feb 21st

- Physically and mentally fed up.
- Tossed and turned all night and finally gave up at 5 am.
- Saw my GP. Had a lot to talk about and received a lot of news. She did mention I was her favourite patient though.

Wednesday, Feb 23rd

- Yesterday Thomas and I painted together. I painted a dancing banana and a picture of Tom on a balancing beam and hanging from his bling on a crucifix. He drew checkered squares and a lampshade. It was us.
- Neither of us slept very well, so we made our own fun.
- Yesterday I completely broke down. Kate took me for coffee though and we talked for hours.

Thursday, Feb 24th

- Ventured to Beechworth and Woolshed Falls. It was beautiful. I love Beechworth and plan to definitely visit with Thomas shortly.
- Thomas dropped by this evening to deliver a present. He didn't suspect that I'd be home and planned to leave it on my bed. He bought me a tea cup and saucer to add to my collection. It was beautiful. It was us.

I feel like I've been losing myself more and more every day now, for the past two months. Lately, especially in the past week and a half, it's become unbearable. I have conducted lots of strageties and plans with my workers, and hopefully things start to improve shortly.

I love you all.
xoxo