Don't Believe Everything You Think.

I'm pretty pathetic. About time I had admitted to it.

It's strange though. I know deep down that I am infact, a good and worthy person (well, sometimes I believe I am...), but I know that this is mostly a burden - especially around here and these days.
The majority of people are unlike me, therefore always causing conflict and misunderstanding. And, just to get the record straight. I mean different, as in, genuinely not the same. Not, 'Oh, I'm so much better than everyone, no one understands me because I'm just oozing with originality'. No. You cannot argue with the fact that I am quite unusual; for good or for bad. I don't know.
Anyway, me being so warped,  I tend retaliate in ways which I know are unacceptable and make me look like the monster. It's the only way I know how to defend myself.
It makes me feel guilty and taking all blame and feeling like more of a waste of space and people's time...

I don't want to say too much, I don't want to cause trouble... I don't have any more room for trouble right now.
But, what I'm saying is, I feel like such a loser and I feel like a piece of shit because I'm not accepted by as many people as I'd like to be. And, because I'm always being told I'm wrong and this and that, I've began to believe it. On the other hand though, I know deep down that not everything I've been told is wrong about me, or not right about me, is incorrect. I know that sometimes, just because a whole heap of people THINK you're this thing or that thing, that you're not. You're truly not. That you're just misunderstood... I mean, everyone's misunderstood to some degree, but in my case, it happens more than the average persons'. And you can't fight it, because you won't win.

The majority can be wrong, but the majority always win.

I suppose the only thing you can do is stay true to yourself, and know who you are. Don't believe everything you hear, or even everything you think, because you are what you think you are.
I guess, the only thing that makes me believe deep down that I'm not as terrible as people tell me, or as I often believe I am, is that all the people I look up to and respect so much, return those feelings to me. The people I have in my life, or the people who don't have anything bad to say about me, are the ones I would choose, if I had to, to feel that way. They're amazing. And, how can people so amazing and so extraordinary love and respect me if I'm so bad?
The people who don't are usually people who I really don't respect or love in return... but hell, it'd make things a WHOLE lot easier if they did like me and respect me.
I guess I've just got to start backing myself up more, because those people are often wrong.

The majority is often wrong.