Times they are a changing.

I just completed a huge shop preparing myself for my move tomorrow.
I find it hard to swallow how much is about to change. Browsing the isles by myself looking for washing liquid, tea towels, knives and cheap but decent food to survive on.
Come tomorrow, Monday the 6th of December, 2010 at approximately 8:30am, I will be a changed person. Well, my life will certainly be changed, thus creating change in myself. I will have to build and maintain healthy relationships with others and form a positive social life so I don't die of introspection (it could totally happen), I will have to learn to budget, cook and clean, look after myself, entertain myself, educate myself and enter into a whole new world. I will have to plan ahead, how I am to get from A to B, remember all my appointments (Oh, goodness, I may even have to keep a little diary with all the things I need to remember written in it!) and I will now have to consider myself an adult. Completely independent (minus the rehab staff if assistance is required).

On Tuesday, rehab is going camping for three days with two other rehab groups from around Victoria. I haven't been camping in 10 years or so and I don't even know these people I will be eating with, sleeping with, talking with and participating in activities with. I'm looking forward to it.

Although I don't wish months in hospital, refuges, police stations, park benches or rehab to anyone, there is a positive in having to be thrown into a group of random people to live amongst (all with very big issues). It's something like living in the Big Brother house. Only, instead of cameras there are people watching you constantly. I consider myself a shy, awkward and introverted person who finds it very difficult to develop relationships with people and talking to others. You discover a lot about yourself. You have to work out where you fit in, you find out your people skills, how others view you, if you're easy to get along with, if you're a leader or like to take the backseat. You find out a lot about who you are, and I really value those experiences.

So, here's to the new me. A new life. And hopefully, a happy one.